The beginning

The beginning

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Rylee's dedication 10/22/11

This was the first of many important events in Rylee's life. I am so thankful for those who cared enough to join us and celebrate this with us.... Thank you to Nana and papa, The entire Fierro Family, Uncle Lyle and Cassie, Big sister Renee and finally ..... mommy!

We started shopping for THE DRESS weeks before the date. We did not have to pick a formal, fancy dress but nothing but the best for our little Rylee. We announced the event on facebook and invited everyone we knew to share this with us. Charlene, her godmother got her outfit together for her and even bought her the cutest little tights.

We decided to have everyone over after the service to celebrate with cupcakes. Charlene made pink cupcakes and even put cream filling in the middle.

The service was really nice. She looked so cute and was such a good girl! She was soooo tired. After being passed around before the service, she passed out in fillip's arms. The pastor called all the babies to the stage and she slept until the pastor said into his microphone," Lisa Resser with Rylee Elizabeth" Just then she popped her head up with eyes wide open at attention. Everyone laughed and she stole the show.
Some members of the church came and prayed over us and she was dedicated!



It was perfect! Just an incredible day. Thanks again to those people who shared it with us.

Monday, October 10, 2011

Mastering her skills by leaps and bounds. 5 months already

     It feels like she just got here and already, overnight, she is mastering skill after skill. She has perfect control of small objects in her hands. Unless her pacifier is stuck under her, she can find it and get it anywhere in her crib. (along with burp cloths that she likes to pull over her face.) She sleeps best with a blanket over her face which I don’t really like but puts her to sleep and keeps her asleep. I can tuck her blanket around her and come in to check on her and find it all up around her head.
     I watched her playing on her playmate yesterday. She turned completely around in a circle on her back trying to get to her baby. Struggling to flip over. She will be turning over by the end of the week.
     She is interested in whatever mom has in her hands now. As long as she was on my lap this weekend, texting on my phone was impossible. She kept grabbing it until I gave up. It won’t be long before I am pulling the cell phone out of her hands.
     I found the secret to keeping her occupied while I’m trying to get ready for the day. I propped her up on a pillow on my bed and turned spout on the TV. I know she is a little young for TV but at least it is educational and whatever gets us through! The only problem with that is that she does not know how to sit back and relax anymore. That girl has abs of steel! She has to be sitting up and will not let you lay her back. She is practically sitting up from a laying position. She is still wobbly but will be sitting up all on her own soon.
     As far as her diet, she is getting so much better about eating. She is eating a full jar of veggies and then some cereal too all in one sitting. She opens her mouth and we can finish a meal now without getting it in her hair.
     The last biggest thing she has almost mastered now is that she is holding her own bottle. She is still trying to get used to controlling it and it’s a little heavy when it’s full but she does okay.
Boy, she is growing waaaay to fast. That’s about it for now. Update ya later!

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Managing mornings alone

I usually manage to get up, get ready and get out the door to work on time. This morning my darling was in her crib talking to herself before I even got out of bed. I put her pacifier in her mouth in hopes that she would put herself back to sleep. Well, by the time I got out of the shower, my poor baby was crying so hard, she was hyperventilating. This is the first time I've "propped" a bottle for her. Into her car seat she went with a bottle to hold her over as I gathered everything and headed out the door to get ready on the go. She was just really hungry I guess. As soon as she ate, she was cheerful, talkative and ready to face the day. So, tonight I fed her until she didn't want anymore and kept her up a little later. Hopefully she does not make getting up before mom and habit. It's really hard for mom to "make it all better" AND get ready for work at 5AM. I love you Rylee. Sleep well my darling

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Where she has come in 5 months

She will be 5 months in 3 days and I enjoy her so much. I had a really hard time at first. Unfortunately I had to deal with some health issues while trying to take care of her and if it weren't for my family, I have no idea what I would have done. I had a hard time dealing with the lack of sleep at first. The first 2 months I felt like i did not sleep at all. But, I promise you that whe that little girl looked at me and smiled for the first time at 2 months, I forgot any of the negatives or struggles I had experienced up to that point. That smile made it all worth it. By 3 months she was sleeping through the night. She'd go to bed by about 10 and be up at 6AM. I could not complain. Anything was better than every 2 hours like the first 2 months.
A  couple of weeks ago she was put on solid food. Doctor said she was ready. So, every night now she eats and eats at dinnertime. The fuller she gets, the better she sleeps. If she stays up until 9 PM, that's late. She still wakes up at 6AM but that's cuz during the week, I wake her up at that time so she is programmed. I will write more later. It's late for this momma too

Clarification

I guess that I should clarify. I am NOT becoming a single mom for the first time at 40. I have been a single mom to Renee, my oldest #1 beautiful daughter. I have my trials and tribulations with her. They are just a different kind.
She is going through her own period of adjustment and struggling with having a new sister who she loves with all her heart but has to share her mom with.  Renee is very demanding of my attention and due to the fact that her dad is absent from her life she has a hole in her heart that she is always trying to fill. I do my best to show her that she is still my world and that I love her no less now that she has a sister. But, we still go through times when she feels her sister is getting all the attention. I love you Renee with all my heart!

Monday, October 3, 2011

Why did I not start this sooner

Rylee is almost 5 months and I am just starting a blog about my trials and tribulations as a single mom at 40. She gets more amazing everyday. So, there is a lot to catch up on. My entire pregnancy I worried about how I would manage being a single, full time working mom. I invisioned all these terrible things that would happen when I could not handle everything on my plate. I worried I'd lose my job, my house and everything else when I could not take care of a baby and a job. Everyday gets easier and everything seems to fall into place. I get up and go to work in the morning because Rylee's future depends on me being able to provide for her well being. I get through my day knowing that at the end of my 8 hours I get to rush home to her and spend the rest of my evening doing what I love the most; caring for my beautiful little girl. I will talk about where she is with her development in the next blog